One more thought...

Actually, I wanted to note that the spiritual songs on here DO have significance and especially Natalie Grant's "I Will Not Be Moved"! That is my theme song!!! So that IS significant! But, say for instance, Mama Mia or Copa Cobana - those songs don't have any life changing significance for me! ;-)

A Disclaimer...

As some may have noticed, I have added music to my blog! Just wanted to put out a disclaimer that these are just songs that I like! They have no sentimental significance to me. I was dusting while listening to the songs earlier and as some of them were playing, I thought, If anyone were listening to these they might think I was trying to say something through them, but nope! They are just songs that I like! There are very few songs that are sentimental to me as pertains to Kenneth & I and I am not adding those songs. I don't care if I never hear them again!!! In fact, some of them make me gag! ;-) Just putting that out there!

I'm enjoying a kid-free day today (although I do miss the kids when they are not with me, it's nice to have a break!) and I'm trying to actually get some cleaning done! By the way, Theo has been much happier since his breakdown over the weekend! He probably just needed to vent! We all have to do that now and then, huh? Have a great day!

Monday, Monday...

I know this may come as a shock to some people, but Monday is my favorite day of the week! I love that it is a new start - a new week! Anything is possible!

This weekend was good for the most part, but challenging too! Theo had a bit of a meltdown on Saturday night. He cried and cried at bedtime that night and said that he wanted Daddy and I to get remarried to each other and that he doesn't understand how Daddy could want a divorce and said that his heart is broken into a million pieces! It was heartbreaking. But I do know that with time, it will get easier. It will never be perfect, but it will be easier. Please pray with me for healing for my sweet boys heart! Please pray for patience for me too. I know that this time has been hard for the kids, but they are acting out with all that's going through their minds. For the last few weeks, I feel like I am constantly disciplining. I know it's usually close to that way normally, but it is worse than normal right now. I'm tired. But I want to be consistent! Thanks for your support!

Up From The Grave She Arose!!!!

All of you Grace Brethren-ers out there will appreciate that title. We do love our dramatic and non-dramatic hymns! ;-)

Okay! So I have been sucked into the Internet "Social Utility" vortex called Facebook! So sorry that I have lost contact with my blog! I am still alive as are my children and we are doing okay!

Life is going on! Since I hadn't posted in so long, I will tell you that since my last post, my sister has gotten married, I've found out that Kenneth's baby is a girl, and I've had my first real "parting" from my children as Kenneth took them for nearly 5 days in a row earlier this month. It was sort of a last-minute plan, so after I dropped them off with him I hopped in the old mini-van and headed to Tennessee! Where I spent my days hanging out with gal pals! And trying not to worry about my children even though the first 30 hours or so of being away from them were filled with text messages telling me that they were screaming and crying uncontrollably for me, and trying to leave the apartment to come and find me! (no joke) But I truly was able to relax and in the end it was good for all of us! Especially me! Although I have made WONDERFUL friends up here in Indiana, whom I am very thankful for, going to Tennessee is like going home for me and I SO needed a visit there to make me feel normal again. Although, when am I ever normal? That's the real question! ;-)

So I had lunch today with the SWEETEST lady here who went through pretty much identically what I'm going through - but about 15 years ago. (minus the new baby girl on the way - I seem to be the only one I know who is fortunate enough to be dealing with that tidbit) Anyway, it was so great to talk to her. Here is someone who really knows how I feel and has been in my shoes! Younger girl and all! And she is happily married and has been for many many years now and is on the other side! Her kids are grown! And although she tells me that she still occasionally grieves from that loss, her life is good! And I believe it! Besides a few moments, I really do feel like life is good. Even right now!

Our divorce is not final yet, but honestly I'm not in a hurry. At first, I wanted to just get it all over with as soon as possible. But now I just want to make sure I get as much dealt with NOW, instead of having to pay my attorney for every question I have in the future. And, (evil laugh) I think it's sort of funny that Kenneth & I could still be married by the time the baby is born. It's very possible! Now, I'm not going to tell my attorney to do this on purpose - I'm not that evil. It is just working out that way. But (insert Dr. Evil's laugh here) it does bring a little laughter into my throat. A chuckle. A snort, if you will.

Well, it's really late, so I probably should be heading to bed. Especially since I'm starting to see double. Is that a bad sign? I promise to be writing again soon!!! LOVE YOU!!!