Up From The Grave She Arose!!!!

All of you Grace Brethren-ers out there will appreciate that title. We do love our dramatic and non-dramatic hymns! ;-)

Okay! So I have been sucked into the Internet "Social Utility" vortex called Facebook! So sorry that I have lost contact with my blog! I am still alive as are my children and we are doing okay!

Life is going on! Since I hadn't posted in so long, I will tell you that since my last post, my sister has gotten married, I've found out that Kenneth's baby is a girl, and I've had my first real "parting" from my children as Kenneth took them for nearly 5 days in a row earlier this month. It was sort of a last-minute plan, so after I dropped them off with him I hopped in the old mini-van and headed to Tennessee! Where I spent my days hanging out with gal pals! And trying not to worry about my children even though the first 30 hours or so of being away from them were filled with text messages telling me that they were screaming and crying uncontrollably for me, and trying to leave the apartment to come and find me! (no joke) But I truly was able to relax and in the end it was good for all of us! Especially me! Although I have made WONDERFUL friends up here in Indiana, whom I am very thankful for, going to Tennessee is like going home for me and I SO needed a visit there to make me feel normal again. Although, when am I ever normal? That's the real question! ;-)

So I had lunch today with the SWEETEST lady here who went through pretty much identically what I'm going through - but about 15 years ago. (minus the new baby girl on the way - I seem to be the only one I know who is fortunate enough to be dealing with that tidbit) Anyway, it was so great to talk to her. Here is someone who really knows how I feel and has been in my shoes! Younger girl and all! And she is happily married and has been for many many years now and is on the other side! Her kids are grown! And although she tells me that she still occasionally grieves from that loss, her life is good! And I believe it! Besides a few moments, I really do feel like life is good. Even right now!

Our divorce is not final yet, but honestly I'm not in a hurry. At first, I wanted to just get it all over with as soon as possible. But now I just want to make sure I get as much dealt with NOW, instead of having to pay my attorney for every question I have in the future. And, (evil laugh) I think it's sort of funny that Kenneth & I could still be married by the time the baby is born. It's very possible! Now, I'm not going to tell my attorney to do this on purpose - I'm not that evil. It is just working out that way. But (insert Dr. Evil's laugh here) it does bring a little laughter into my throat. A chuckle. A snort, if you will.

Well, it's really late, so I probably should be heading to bed. Especially since I'm starting to see double. Is that a bad sign? I promise to be writing again soon!!! LOVE YOU!!!